“'I don't know, it feels like.. sometimes it feels like the world is falling apart, and a lot of people our age feel like theres nothing they can really do about it. so 'we are broken' is about that feeling and wanting to reach out for something to kind of save it all. cause everyone at some point is reaching out for something and for some type of hope. thats really the point of 'we are broken'. its just admitting 'everything is sort of screwed up and i'm looking for hope.' - Hayley Williams”—
Would quite like to stop having silly little pointless crushes, if you can even call them that.He’s funny, he’s quite sweet, and he’s good looking - but he’s nothing like me. He actually goes out on the weekends with his friends, he likes drinking…a lot. I highly doubt he even likes me in that way. I’m only liking him because he’s there and theres a few things I like about him…but he’s not the right person for me, I just know that.
I can’t seem to let this go because i’m scared. I’m scared I will be boyfriendless for years to come. I’m scared i’ll be lonely. I’m scared that all my friends will have someone apart from me. I’m scared I won’t find anyone who likes my personality. I’m scared I will never find someone that has anything in common with me. I’m scared i’ll end up with someone who likes wild parties and getting drunk every Saturday night and in the end, get fed up of me because I don’t like that kinda thing.
I know this sounds really petty and desperate…but what I want sounds so simple in my head and I never would’ve thought it would be so difficult to find.
I adored it even more than the first time. It’s so much better than Twilight and it makes me feel so emotional, it’ sthe first film thats ever made me be really teary eyed. I’m Team Edward but the ending when Jacob as the wolf runs away is so heartbreaking and when Bella is sitting in her room and the months are going by </3. Bella’s personality actually reminds me so much of myself, more so in the books because it describes her more, you know, apart from the fact I don’t have perfect vampire boyfriend *ahem* .
There’s some beautiful music in the film as well. The soundtrack is on my Christmas list and i’m thinking theres a good chance mum will buy it for me - shes my fellow Twilighter ;).
"Alice. You’ve disappeared. Like everything else. Now who else can I talk to? I’m lost. When you left, and he left, you took everything with you. But the absence of him is everywhere I look. It’s like a huge hole has been punched through my chest. But In a way, I’m glad. The pain is the only reminder that he was real. That you all were."
Seriously people, If you don’t like Twilight then shut the hell up about it. Yes, we are free to state our opinions, nothing wrong with that but please stop going on and on about how ‘shit’ Twilight is. Have you haters ever read the books? Have you seen the films? I highly doubt it. And anyway, what harm is it to you? Just don’t read about it.
I keep wondering what it feels like to be in love.
I’m scared I will never find that. I don’t even know what having a boyfriend is like. Not even going on a date. Nothing. I’m only 18, yes. But I feel like most people my age have at least been on a date. I haven’t, it makes me feel like a loser. All I want is to find someone that loves me for me, that I feel comfortable with and who I want to spend time with and someone who wants to spend time with me even if it’s just watching a film at home.
But where will I ever find this? Honestly, the only place I go to socialise is college and I don’t even feel completly comfortable there. My friends live far away so I don’t go out a lot with them. This is why I wonder if it’ll happen. Negative thought? Yeh…but It makes me worry and i’ve been thinking a lot about it lately.
I’m not just some little girl desperate to have a guy on her arm, I just want to find somebody.
Sometimes I wish I didn’t have such strong opinions on things. Not necessarily important things, just things that mean something to me. If I didn’t, the things that people say against my opinions wouldn’t frustrate and upset me so much but I also like having strong opinions because I like having my own thoughts about something and if everyone agreed, this world would be a pretty boring place to be.