I wish I had a flat tummy
mum told me she doesn’t think i’m dedicated enough to uni for it to be worth doing. that’s honestly the last thing I needed to hear but i’m scared she’s right. I don’t live anywhere near anyone, I haven’t really made any friends and I wish I could just do one of my subjects full time instead of lots of different things. I could quit but I feel like the biggest failure….again. me getting a job is a ridiculous process because of anxiety crap and i’m terrified i’ll go back to what I used to be like before I started uni if I don’t have anything to do…I can’t do that again, I just can’t. i’ve already pissed away so many years of my life doing nothing and being depressed….i’m so scared and I don’t know what to do.
when you are so desperate you go to the second page of google results
why can’t I just look forward to things without worrying :(
sitting in silence with your best friend is actually really nice because youre together and youre just happy to be together even if the both of you are just scrolling through tumblr and twitter because you occasionally point something else to the other person and laugh and maybe talk but youre just comfortable and together and thats enough
