this state is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating. anticipating, all the fucked up feelings again.
I’m feeling like i’m sinking and nothing’s there to catch me, keep me breathing.
you know what fuck you, I’m fed up with you
I’m not as good as you? fuck no I’m better than you
KoRn were fucking amazing last night! I had a relatively crappy view from the 2nd row of the balcony but the atmosphere was still amazing! Really really want to see them again.
Seeing him absolutely tore me to pieces but we exchanged texts and waved to each other. Awkward when his friends were looking at me thought but hey, it was a good night overall!
Went to the doctors this morning and she’s put me on antibiotics for a week which means I can’t drink when Steph’s here. :/ On a lighter note, I popped into the charity shop this morning because Mandy (manager) offered me a job just hanging and steaming clothes instead of till work and I’ve agreed to it so i’m working next Friday afternoon. She gave me a big hug for coming back in, bless her. Cleaning my room at the mo because It looks like I live in a dusty pit anddddd Korn gig tonight! Excited, bit nervous bearing in mind i’ve never seen a band like them before but i’m gonna play it safe and stand on the balcony instead of the floor……I don’t wanna get kicked in the head. Love my mum for agreeing to come with me as I don’t know any other Korn fans. :) I’m probably gonna end up seeing him (it’s a small venue) but I’m gonna try and not let it upset me. I just want to have a good night.
Then Steph gets here at about 3pm tomorrow. Proper excited! Yay for having a life for the next week!
Wondering what time to queue for KoRn on Tuesday to get front and centre on the balcony. Any suggestions?
Oildale sounds fucking amazing live. Please keep this in the setlist for Bristol!
Korn followed me back and DM’ed me on Twitter. Is this just the normal thing everyone gets or am I spesh? x)
Well I wish there was someone
Well I wish there was someone to love me
When I used to be someone
and I knew there was someone that loved me
as I sit here frozen alone
even ghosts get tired and go home
as they crawl back under the stones
And I wish there was something
please tell me there’s something better
and I wish there was something more than this
Saturated loneliness
and I wish I could feel it
and I wish I could steal it
abduct it, corrupt it
but I never can, it’s just
Saturated loneliness
Does the silence get lonely
Does the silence get lonely
Who knows?
I’ve been hearing it tell me
I’ve been hearing it tell me, “go home”
‘cause the freaks are playing tonight
they packed up and turned out the lights
And I wish there was something
please tell me theres something better
and I wish there was something more than this
Saturated loneliness
and I wish I could feel it
and I wish I could steal it
abduct it, corrupt it
but I never can, it’s just
saturated loneliness
and the bathwaters cold
and this life’s getting old
and I wish I could feel it
and I wish I could feel it
and I wish I could steal it
abduct it, corrupt it
and I wish I could feel it
and I wish I could steal it
and I wish I could feel it
abduct it, corrupt it
but I never can,
I never can
never can
never can
never can
Well I wish there was someone
Well I wish there was someone to love me
When I used to be someone
and I knew there was someone that loved me
as I sit here frozen alone
even ghosts get tired and go home
as they crawl back under the stones
And I wish there was something
please tell me there’s something better
and I wish there was something more than this
Saturated loneliness
